2010 woooooo!!!

2) GET A JOB! (not really for the money, but for the fact that i have a job)

3) .. kk thats really it =/ i only have 2 resolutions

But! My xmas list is much bigger! =))

In no particular order... this is what you can get jennii if you can't think of anything =O

1) a pretty, long, WALLET =D
I like this one



2) BVLGARI SAVE THE CHILDREN RING


3) RED IPOD - sponsoring AIDS
must be red =O


4) KAT-TUN - Break the Records PHOTO BOOK


5) KAT-TUN - Break the Records Concert DVD - HONGKONG/TAIWAN EDITION!!!
I have no use for the Japan edition =( Won't understand a thing
No pic of dvd available yet =O

6) SONY CAMERA - DSC T10 - PINK =O (or red) (or black)


7) C.C Lolita costume!
Wish fulfilled already! =D yayyerr


8) LOTS AND LOTS OF NEW CLOTHES AND SHOES AND FREE MONEYYYYSSS =D
sometimes cash may seem impersonal to some =O But theres nothing more warming to the soul than seeing a wad of free cash =)

MY CC WIG ARRIVEDDDD TOOODAYYY =) 

so i played with it and wannabe-ed CC for a while =3

thanks photoshop for giving me someone else's golden eyes <3

C.C wannabee photossss (got lazy with the eyes after a while == ) 

Introducing CC! : my favourite girl char in Code Geass =) because im a conformist like that
Obviously my favourite Guy char is LULUUUUU 
 =) =)  
I actually quite want the ZEROO COSTUMEEE =DD But like, i will settle other wants first =) 

   

PS: I AM GOING TO MAKE A CHEESE KUN AFTER EXAMS =DD  (Cheese kun is the big yellow thing she's holding) <3 yayerrrsss!! 

--------Failed wannabe CC here---------------


    

Okay after this point i just stopped trying =D so its just me & hair & normal eyes!

      <-- failed lighting
     
 
YER YER YER YER =) 

THIS IS WHAT JENNY WANTS for NYE: 

    

^ I mean the dress =) =) 

BECAUSE EXCHANGE RATE IS GOOOODDDDDD and i would feel less ripped off if i order nowww =D hehehe

on a total side note;
i completely flunked QMB =) 
cheers

XOXO J.

After deciding to give in to conformity; and asking permission from anita =O I've decided to give Project 365 a go in my own little way =]

So, introducing my blog to record the experience
 

Come and play =) 
 

OLD HAIR
 

 

andddd.... NEWWW HAIRR!! =) 


 

yes that is it for now =) 

xoxo. J.

Every game, whether for show or in life, will always produce a winner. 

Except no one pauses to think about the ball, its confusion throughout at the game as it attempts to pledge allegiance to one side; nor its sorrow for the other when victory is decided. 

We live in a world of distorted reality shows
and twisted politic games. 

It's sickening that this also exists in the domestic sphere.

-J.

Due to multiple requests (mainly from joanneee <3) for blogging; i decided to blog along with a new layout! =) 

It's spring time! =) And so i thought this pale pastelly pinkish blossoms layout will be fitting for the new season =) 

I never really realized this; but my blog layout actually does change with the season! =O 

Ah dear blog; how i wish i have something amusing to say =/

Anyway; so on last thursday i locked myself out of my house due to strong winds and a lackthereof keys.

The cliffnotes version would be; i walked into front yard without bringing keys; wind blew; door closed; i cried.

So anyway; after wandering around panicking in my garden wearing only half of my street clothes and cow slippers; i attacked a innocent asian lady walking on my road.

Yeah baby.

She ran =/  

I chased her. 

 and then explained to her (in chinese) of my misfortunes to hopefully clear my apparent insanity and asked to borrow her phone.

she said she had none ._.

gg.

I ended up stalking to my sister's previous child care centre (again, in my cow slippers) and borrowed the phone from there. It's a relief they didn't think i was crazy; or pedo.

me thinks =/

Anyways, dad said he'd come to open doors for me in couple of hours; so then i was left with the decision of what to do for 3 hrs =/ 

i thought it was very smart to perhaps climb the side gates to get inside my backyard; but the spider webs scared me; so i spent 1/2 hr cleaning the webs off both gates with pieces of grass.

oh joy

Cept then i realized it doesnt matter anyway coz my back door was locked from the inside. Go me.

Then i had an ingenius idea of picking my lock; again with a piece of grass

i think some of that grass is still stuck in the key hole =/

pulling out grass and tree leaves landed sap on my hands; so i thought i was fully utilising the tools of nature by wiping my hands on more grassy blob patches; till i realized i actually owned a hose which meant water; in my front yard - which was sort of comforting. i guess.

So the clock ticked away; and i know this; because i listened to my living room giant watch clock tick the entire time == (ever had something that you really really wanted; but could never reach? It felted like that) 

Next door neighbours blasted some deafening rock music; so i took up this chance and decided to make a flower tiara/wreath utilising nature's tools courtesy of my front yard.



Then i thought the tiara looked lonely, so i made a flower bouquet



Yeah im THAT awesome.

*transcendence towards hippie generation; JOHN LENNON says yes.* 

So anyway, Spring;
Since i was born in china; TECHNICALLYYY i was born in the spring =) But i've never paid much attention to it... autumn was always my favourite season; its colours appeals to me. But there's something alluring about Spring too; i wouldn't call it an excited type of allure; but definately a warm, loving one.

I like nature; i guess im not an outdoor type; unless there is an outdoor mini mall; but nature i do adore. 
But of course it has to come with lounging chairs and a nice serving of mojito.

So i shall take my leave with my photoshopped goodies from these 3 recent months =) 
Credit: All original photography belongs to their respective owners. 
 
The Blossom                                                            

 

Forbidden Desires (inspired by Ice Age 3) 


Pale Lilies


Lilies' Reflection


Nature in Chaos


Graphics courtesy of xxAkixx Designs if used.
(Yes i decided to finalise the credit name to that now =O ) 

xoxo. J

hello! =)

YAY NO MORE FINALSS!! (for this sem =D)

i finally finished my exams today =( like, 3 whole days after everyone else =( I DONT LIKE FINISHING TOWARDS THE END =(

Kinda got no motivation to study since everyone is out and about =( pooo

but i hope i did okay for law =D At least i knew what majority of it was on about =3

lalalal~ omg open book tests are actually really scary =(  You get this false sense of security, and you think you've prepared really well, and comes in with huge stacks of prepared notes/books; then you look over next to you, and like.. there's people with folders/books/notes high enough that you can't even see their face =(  poo; made me feel very sad that moment =( 

Anyway, NO MORE FOR 28 DAYS! =D [ feels like the movie =/ ]

So i shopped todayyy =D teehee as post exam relief =D 

Jennii's new star piece in her wardrobe this week! :  SHINY! (fake) LEATHER MINI JACKET! =3 =3 she loves she loves =] <3 So that's going to be around alot this week =D Until the next new star piece comes in next week =] teeheee

After exams, (this may sounds extremely sad) but i felt that i've lost an aim in life ;_; Not cramming for anything makes me feel quite empty.... so what do you do when you feel empty?

YOU CAMWHORE =] !

Teehee =]

HELLO! =D =D 

  << Being stupid

 NERD TIME =D =D =D 

 << fake shiny leather jacket ! =D <3 <3 <3 ! 

Puhahahahaha =D 

xoxo. J.

So in life; everyone's had something which they thought was lost;

a misplaced doll,

a forgotten lolly,

a forgone relationship,

a ceased interest.


And surely everyone remembers the moment where they regain that something;

That squeal of delight when your dad unearth the doll from under the couch

The inner joy when you dig out a lolly in your pocket you never knew you had

The surge of emotions when you renew that relationship you never truly let go

And the burst of adrenaline and excitement when you realized the interests you once had was never buried
 

At that moment, everything becomes new again.

------------

So, this is hardly an epiphany; but i woke up this morning with a surge of excitement pumping through me (along with pain, but, thats another issue).

So as a child, and still, as a 19 yr -NOT OLD- uh.. person, i've never had the means to committ to anything that i do.

As a child, i've had many, many obsessive phases with things, but none of them lasted.

And even now, i find myself unable to commit even to certain topics. I could be in the middle of a heated discussion with someone about something, then suddenly find myself disinterested and bored by the topic, and will cease talking due to boredom.

So, when i found the KAT-TUN fandom in 2007, i thought it was just something which would pass in max a few month time. Which is why when it continued on for almost 2 years, i was rather surprised.

Perhaps its an unhealthy obsession, or a teenage fangirl's rave; but to me, it was the longest commitment to an interest i've ever had. Which was why that the obsession itself was very, very important to me.

Now you'd say "sure", "another excuse" - but really, the fact that i've stuck through with it for so long really makes me feel rather proud, and gives myself an aim in life if you may; as trivial and stupid as the fact may sound.

So to i guess 1 way to declare my love or the fandom, and to make sure i stuck by it, i joined JORSubs. And that whole process was indeed new, and exciting at first; and its the feeling that im part of the process which makes me feel like i've accomplished something; where compared to previously in life, i've accomplished nothing.

Now i know that subbing is not like donating food or helping out in 3rd world countries, which believe me, when i'm older and more able, i shall do my share of helping with the world - mean while i shall just donate to salvation army every friday.

But anyway, i guess i was too excited to think abt the commitments to JORs.

I was never good with schedules, or plans...  i hated them.

As a child i loved piano, and music; but i quit as soon as mum found me a teacher for it. I disliked the scheduled times, and songs you had to play; i disliked how i did not have a choice in the matter; disliked how the power was always on somebody else.

I guess that was the deal with JORS.  It wasn't the problems of the subteam themselves at all; the problem was, as it has always been, on me.

After a few month, the scheduled releases got to me; and it slowly turned from a form of accomplishment to a burden where i did not care anymore. I had no time for the fandom other than the subteam and from there, it turned downhill to an unpaid job. And that's when i got the hell out of there.

But i miss it though; i really do...  i miss the friends i've made there, i miss the gratefulness of people, i miss been in touch of the fandom.

So from then onwards, i quit the KAT-TUN fandom; and although i kept my kat-tun stuff, i guess for the past 1/2 year kat-tun never really entered my mind.

But I had a dream! 

Which although did not involve black people and white people fusing together; was quite an epiphany for me personally;

Okay, it was rather retarded and stupid and you will laugh at it; but hey, its my dream.

So there was a shot of kame with hair curlers dancing on tv in my dream.

Even though it was a quick 10 seconds, the me-in-my-dream jumped up and down and squealed, and even though i was asleep, i felt that pumping excitement again.
And now that i've woken up, its the only part of the dream iremembers...

So i've watched 2 videos of KAT-TUN before coming over here and noting down my moment.
 

I'M BACK TO THE KT FANDOM <3 <3 ! 

You may not approve, you may be mad; but you have to understand that it makes me feel like im alive; and that to know that i still havent lost that interest, makes me feel proud of myself.


It's that moment when you find out that you got great marks on a piece of work which you thought you utterly failed; its that moment where you realized the game you love may have a continuation; its that moment when you find a $5 on the street; and that moment where you finds back that love which you thought was long gone.

It makes you feel like you are living.

Hope you can revel in this with me.

xoxo J.

(The above post may be rather stupid, but it means alot to me; kthnxbye) 

Sometimes in life when you finally pump up the courage to do something, or say something, it gladly says; thankyou, and gtfothnx.

That shit really sucks.

Because alongside of a foundation of courage, you also built up sources of hope, of dreams and of goals. And then to have all that thrown back in your face, crushing you then sending you swirling in an endless pithole-

That shit really sucks.

Previously i said that we are all berries of autumn - fall berries - clinging on to the strong supportive branches, afraid to let go, or fall.

But now the berry has fallen; and the truth is the cold, hard earth -
 

that's why we hold on to those branches; so at least those dreams of a fallen berry, drifting to freedom, at least remains - and not as a mess of shattered pieces upon impact on that cold hard ground.

Yeah, that shit really sucks.

xoxo. J.

OKAY SO I CBB CONTINUING THIS POST, SO UNTIL I CAN BE BOTHERED TO UPDATE IT AGAIN, THATS ALL THERE IS SO FAR FOR JAPAN POST <3

Japan trip:   a fornight during november 2008 <3 ; Post HSC fun! ; disturbingly pink bear with a hole up its ass as mascot; cheap-ass jetstar promotion plane tickets ($750 return + INSURANCE AND TAX!); large amounts of ramen, pasta, and maccas; giant tourist tshirts and camwhore-ness 
 
So this shall be my delayed japan post! =) 

Warning: Extremely IMAGE HEAVY =) 

So now... if you are all ready and sure..

Japan Trip 2008``
PINKU SEXIII's - J.He, Jennii, Ally, Wynty, Nola, Cynthia

Lemme first introduce you to our team mascot - PINK SEXY! (bascially a pink carebear with a hole up its ass) 
 
I am acutally not sure who's hand that is...

DAY 1  OSAKA
Our flight was around about 8am something, but jetstar required us to be there 2 hrs prior. But we were all pretty much really dead... No, correction, I was pretty much really dead since 6am is hardly the time when i'm happiest, and plus i possibly had a little too much alcohol the night before.
But we boarded, relatively safely after getting laughed by Australian Customs [Due to ally's baby food tendencies, my extreme load of accessories, and Nola getting body searched for no apparent reason <3 - customs people are really mean =( ]
  
So there's JETSTAR! <3 And us commemorating our first trip together =) 

And here we are! Just arrived at Kansai Airport Osaka~ at about... 8-9pm Japan time the same day~
All in all, the jetstar ride was pretty smooth - our previous fears of us sinking into international waters surprisingly did not come true. I pedo-ed a baby girl though on the plane next to me =D She wouldn't stop crying so i played with her... and then we took a picture with her! =D But i won't put that up coz....  that's just freaky =)

We trained to Tennoji station from Kansai Airport, and then Taxi-ed our way to our hostel. I'm going to take a second to flail about japanese taxi drivers <3333!! They are mainly old men about 50-60, and THEY ALL WORE BOW TIES =D not all of them, but majority did, they were in suits and bowtie =D How utterly cute <3 But i felt really bad coz they had to help us load our suitcases in their taxi... and god knows how their back could handle it ><'

  
We stayed at Osaka Weekly Mansion Otemae branch during our time in Osaka - Which costed about 11000 yen (4 nights) all together per person - Which is about.. $27.50 USD (if 1USD=100yen) - So quite a good deal for japan =) 
The place is amazingly nice (for that price) - Rooms are clean, and we had private bathroom and shower <3 The staff are really nice and spoke english (although dodgey english), and definately safe =) 
It is quite convenient --> It is about 5 mins walk to Tanimachi No. 4 subway station, is across the road from Family Mart (convenience store), about 4 mins walk away from 7/11 and Lawsons, and 3mins away from Maccas + KFC.
The above would be a picture taken of us inside the lift... bcoz j.he stalks me =) *<33333* 

My first dinner in Japan at about 12am --> We raided Family Mart, and i had my first convenience store onigiri <3 =D  i have to say my favourite one would be the one with all that weed. 
...It's only weed because i don't know what vegetable it actually is.

Day 2 OSAKA CASTLE+DONTOBORI+SHINSAIBASHI SUJI STREET

Our first brekkie was.... Maccas ><'' Since it costed 300 yen for everything =D They served fish-o-fillet as "breakfast" menu =D <3
On that note; i have to give a shoutout to...   HOT DRINK VENDING MACHINES! YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY LOVE <3

So Osaka Castle was........ disappointing. We fully expected it to be of an imperial place of a touristy nature, but it turned out to be a really shit museum type of thing. The outside was pretty though =) And you could see most of osaka on the top level, but... apart from that, there's nothing to it.
   
But in osaka castle park thingo, we saw a man who had a squirrel as its pet!! It was relaly cute, and eating a nut =D

So bascially then we got bored and went to Dontobori - amazing food street with Giant crabs as its symbol. It is right next to Shinsaibashi street, which is good for cheap shopping <3
 
we found sanrio!! it was cute.. but i dont like hello kitty so... =/ 
Cheap SHOPPING HERE =)) And street culture i guess =]  

Day 3 UMEDA (Hankyuu) + SHINSAIBASHI + Johnny's Shop Osaka!
 
So basically... Johnny's Shop osaka was YAY!!! Cept... it was pretty small and cramped, and didn't have much things, but i bought a number of stuff! I will probably put the pics up later.

Umeda was good... but things in Hankyuu were too expensive for us teenage tourists, so, we went back to Shinsaibashi for the afternoon. <3

Day 4 KYOTO+KYOMIZU TEMPLE+NOH PLAY+GION

  







 

Jenniii went shopping today!!!! YAYYERRR for Myer One Discounts~! <333

But my feet now is like... dyingggg......... =(( 

Yes this is a random useless blog abt my feet =DD 

Well no, the feet is just to introduce you to my formal shoes

 

And here's Jennii feeling likee the mushroom today =) 



GOODBYE! ^___^ 

"   孤單　是一個人的狂歡

     狂歡　是一群人的孤單 "

一直都很喜歡這副歌詞

真的覺得其實一個人的孤單也許是一種解放

而一群人的聚會倒會是一種心靈上的安慰

狂歡便是每人尋找表面上的依靠的地方


葉子當然也包括在內

 
當一個葉子孤單飛翔時﹐也是她在狂歡時-因為那一刻﹐她是為一點一滴的焦點。 她與她的自我可會聯在一起

 當一群葉子﹐在一顆樹上高唱茂密之歌時﹐也是每一個葉子在滴淚時-因為她並沒有感受到安慰﹐而只是靜靜地享受這表面的永恆 - 時間的步伐總會有一天打翻這桌宴席

人﹐物 - 都是一樣的

每當唱K時﹐也不是有時都會感受到與歌詞的共鳴﹐與音樂的同聲-而並此會感到孤獨﹐不管有多少的朋友在。 

當每人心靈內處都在尋找自我的話﹐

人與人

-也都是一樣的

不過﹐我們還是選擇了狂歡。